Hi Gorgeous, I wrote this short post about sexual attacks mainly for myself but also to help awaken the thought – ‘What are we telling our women?“
Sometimes writing a rep allows me to see it – the ex trainer in me just needs to do that, to see the rep for what it is. Over the years I’ve faced heightened sexual attacks. And it doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t post YouTube videos or social media accounts but it means that because men are so attracted to my frequency that I’m more likely to attract stalkers. Both in real life and online.
I was sexualized when I was a personal trainer and posted workout videos on YouTube and ran a health blog, I was sexualized as an Only Fans model (which that didn’t both me a bit because I’m presenting myself as a playmate coupled with the men being honest about what their there for vs. going to the grocery store and the old guy is up your grill or having landlords who rent out rooms to women only to discover their living off your femininity (not that I have experience with that or anything…).
I was also sexualized when I had ran a breathwork and asmr channel, no sex involved (which I just turned all the comments on my asmr videos off so I could post them in peace). The average reader could argue that this happens to every women and they would be 100% right however believe me when I say that mine is heightened. Much vulgar and heightened way before Only Fans came into play. When I was younger I would be told wear more clothes to help the men and certain family members to stop looking at me (which I don’t think anyone in my family was, I think it was a projection of a few other women onto me). And now that I’m older people use other excuses for why I’m hurt. But what if I’m not meant to be hurt. What if my body isn’t a temptation. What if my body is a vibration and I’m a woman to awaken it.